This week has been a lot better! There still isn't much difference in the size of my leg, but having a positive attitude about it really makes a huge difference.
It's been about 2 months since the surgery and the skin graft is almost healed which I feel will be a great mile stone to pass. I went to appointment with my doctor yesterday to talk about finding a better form of compression. She said it would be fine if I started to wear an off-the-shelf thigh high garment for now because I still need some support, but it won't be too tight. It is nice to have that compression again. I've kind of missed it which might sound weird, but after you've been wearing a compression garment everyday for the past two and a half years it feels more weird not to be wearing one. At this point my real concerns lay with the fact that I'm going up to school in April which is almost 1000 miles away from home and my doctors. I wouldn't be so nervous if I had started to see more improvement by now. Everything is all still so new so being away from my family, my mom especially, who knows just about everything that I know about all of this will be hard. I know it's probably an irrational fear that something crazy will happen, and I know I need to move forward. I can't put my whole life on hold that is why I have decided to go for it. I'm excited to see the outcome in all of this. I know everything will be okay in the end. The biggest thing in all of this is patience which I need to remind myself every day. If you guys hadn't noticed I’ve been procrastinating posting a picture of my ankle. To be honest I’ve been struggle the past week or so. This is a very hard situation for me because I had just started to get use to controlling and managing my leg when I finally decided to get this surgery and now I feel like everything is new, and I’m not exactly sure how to handle it all. My ankle is far from pretty. I think the best way to describe it is.. interesting. I know that I would have really appreciated pictures of what it would look like so I would have been better prepared to handle it. That is why I feel like I need to share this even though it does put me outside my comfort zone. ... but then again maybe it’s better they didn't show me pictures because I don’t know if I would have went through with it if I had seen them.
It's only been a month and 3 weeks since my surgery so I haven’t seen much difference in my leg yet. It has been getting to me quite a bit because I’m not a very patient person, and I love my family and friends but it’s hard to go to them for comfort in this situation. With that being said I would just like to say how thankful I am for my parents for being my rock through all of this. Through all my doubts and bad days they are always there to listen and reassure me that there is still a lot of time to see improvements and changes and to tell me if there is any time in my life that I need to think positive it’s now. My goal for this next week is to be more positive and not worry so much that I’m not see big changes yet! Wish me luck. |
AuthorHi, my name is Sydney, and I have Primary Lymphedema. I created this blog to share my journey, and I hope that by sharing my story I can help those who are on a similar path. Archives
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